having married friends

sometimes it makes me feel like a loser, having married friends.

short cuts

A little piece of this and a little piece of that, I read the Carver's over the years.

I remember the first story I read, people talking at the kitchen table. "It ought to make us feel ashamed when we talk like we know what we're talking about when we talk about love," I read the words and have practiced this toung twister for more than ten years.

Carver never tends to solve anything, and so do the characters. You watch them feel and watch them respond. You watch them live their lives. It shows the "cuts" of their lives, and of human behavior. The moment it cuts, it seems you even hear a slight cracking.

And the cracking makes it feel so real.

如果還有明天

彈吉他的男子在唱薛岳的歌。

每次在電視台聽到這歌，阿爸就會再講一次薛岳的事，講他留長髮，講他得癌症，講他在最後的演唱會唱這歌，講他死掉的時候年輕。

有個比我年輕的男子也停下來聽，他看起來像是個聽初音未來的御宅族，他走到前方。你看得出來他聽得感動，大概也好奇怎麼在人來人往的車站廣庭唱了這首可能不被知道的歌。

男子拉長了音，結束了最後一句歌詞。我趕在下一首歌之前，投了零錢。走在走廊的時候，男子唱起了下一首，是張雨生的歌。