夜很深的時候

夜很深的時候

跟siri說我想念我媽媽

siri說他沒有這個問題的答案

我又說了一次我想念我媽媽

siri還是說他沒有這個問題的答案

siri開了地圖給我

我像找不到媽媽的孩子一樣地哭

you fix things

一言難盡

媽媽我們需要妳的保祐和指引

 

🎂

 wish you were here

媽媽

甘謝你這世人ê照顧

暖暖熱熱

早上做了個夢
有一個什麼捧在手掌暖暖熱熱的

Ninja生日快樂
永遠12歲

hunger hurts

"Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love"

N

💛

衣角

只要媽媽好像要開始某個灰暗的回憶的時候，我就要趕快切斷慢慢成形的湖，像跟在後頭的復健師拉著衣角，失去重心可是會掉進湖裡的吶。想像以後的事就好啦想那些要幹麻像個老頭地念，前面是一條長的走廊一直往前像河，捏得小小的一角，你跟著媽媽一步一步。

神無月

神無月
眾神出走
惡鬼橫行
魃魈魁鬾魑魅魍魎

這裡沒有神

理解

向陽說那是連理解都不要，就只是陪伴。

我也不想要被理解，我想要的也是陪伴。小孩和小孩不用以理解來理解，那是大人的把戲。

我想要是小孩。

讓你的黑暗說話

讓你的黑暗說話 ◎馬尼尼為

拿一張紙寫你的家庭
擠滿了人
外面黑
讓你的黑暗說話

feather

hi there,

a crow came to the land today.

i was taking a walk along the shore, and found a feather lying on the sand. the feather shone in the sunlight. i don't know a dark thing can be so beautiful and bright. long before i noticed, there stood a crow.

the crow stared at me, without moving or making a sound. i wondered what it wanted. water, food, or maybe it didnt want anything at all. i stared back at the crow.

i felt amazed to see how beautiful the creature is. it's as dark as darkness can be, and every darkness has its own. the sun shone the crow bright and showed a slanted shadow. the shadow was inky dark on the white sand. i noticed i had a shadow as well, dark and slanted as well. i stared at the shadow. it seemed to remind me of something in a deep place.

so me and the crow, my shadow and the crow's shadow, we kept each other company in the early afternoon. i didn't know how long it passed; and suddenly, the crow seemed to notice something, making a sound, and flew away.

i decided to keep the feather.

have a good day.

sep.5, 2018

nightmare

i don't know which one is more like a nightmare, the one in my dream or the one in reality.

moon

something out there like the moon

when we sway

「當我們搖擺/ 我變弱」

活著

活 著 ◎谷川俊太郎

活著
現在活著
那就是口渴
是枝葉間射下來耀眼的陽光
是忽然想起的一支旋律
是打噴嚏
是與你手牽手

活著
現在活著
那就是超短裙
是天文館
是約翰 · 史特勞斯
是畢卡索
是阿爾卑斯山
是遇到一切美妙的事物
而且，還要
小心翼翼提防潛藏的惡

活著
現在活著
是敢哭
是敢笑
是敢怒
是自由

活著
現在活著
是剛才狗在遠處的狂吠
是現在地球的旋轉
是生命剛剛在何處誕生的啼哭
是現在士兵在某地負傷
是此時鞦韆的搖蕩
是現在時光的流逝

活著
現在活著
是鳥兒展翅
是海濤洶湧
是蝸牛爬行
是人在相愛
是你的手溫
是生命

a room just for me

"I managed to squeeze through the narrow part, and then deeper in it suddenly got lower, and down from there it was like a small room. A round room, like a ball. The ceiling's round, the walls are round, and the floor, too. And it was so, so silent there, like you could search the whole world and never find any place that silent. Like I was at the bottom of an ocean, in a hallow going even deeper. I turned off the flashlight and it was pitch dark, but I didn't feel scared or lonely. The room was a special place that only I'm allowed into. A room just for me. No one else can get thete. You can't go in either."

-- Killing Commendatore

Tap to Retry

排掉

像是為了回到某種平衡而破壞其他平衡，整個六月都在做這種傷身的事，metaphorically and literally。

想把東西排掉，排掉，想身心輕盈。

一年