2004年1月5日
the alienation of the individaul
所以說"the alienation of the individual”根本就是必然的存在現象囉
或者說個人的疏離根本就已經是a truth about the modern society 了囉
每個個體都是一樣，只是看個體承認不承認罷了
資本主義下製造─消費─製造─消費的模式似乎不足以解釋我們物質上的疏離了
真正加劇破壞的應該是令人又愛又恨偉大的OK Computer 還有網際網路了吧
沒有報紙沒有電視沒有買吸滴用拳頭打架打不過人放假沒有人找我出去玩都沒有關係
只要關上房門打開電腦移動滑鼠我就生活在鳥語花香的天堂
我的脈膊跟全世界一起律動，我的呼吸跟全世界以同樣的頻率進行
於是我們認知的世界就是電腦螢幕文字再現的世界
which is a more vivid and more dynamic reflection of the reality
不只是material上的疏離
最殘酷的疏離就是spiritual上的疏離了吧
看看網際網路上的個人網站、個人新聞台、布落格日誌，甚至是各大bbs上難以數計的個人版
到處到處都躲藏著極力彰顯自己不被了解那一部分，或是自認不被了解的疏離靈魂
到處都有不被老闆了解不被老師了解不被父母了解不被朋友了解、此怨綿綿無絕期的孤獨靈魂
老師不是人裡面的女生說"I used to think the only alien in this high school was me."
所以說其實大家都是外星人囉
孤獨的外星人在現實生活必須偽裝成地球人才不會被當做the other殺害
於是外星人只能透過電腦語言網路語言才能以真實的自己跟其他的外星人溝通
嗯，所以結論是：
「Ｔhe alienation of the individual 是必然的，因為我們本來就都是外星人。」
這實在不是什麼了不起的發現哎
只是 i used to think the only alien in this world was me
如此而已
2004年1月3日
Mad World by Gary Jules
發現我一開始就搞錯了
現在我還會回想起的並不是那creepy的邦尼兔寶寶
而是Donnie Darko
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Gary Jules - Mad World
"Donnie Darko Soundtrack"
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places – worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere – going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression – no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow – no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it’s a very very
mad world mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday – happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen – sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me – no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me – look right through me
And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it’s a very very
Mad world . . . world
Enlarge your world
Mad world
現在我還會回想起的並不是那creepy的邦尼兔寶寶
而是Donnie Darko
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Gary Jules - Mad World
"Donnie Darko Soundtrack"
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places – worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere – going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression – no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow – no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it’s a very very
mad world mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday – happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen – sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me – no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me – look right through me
And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it’s a very very
Mad world . . . world
Enlarge your world
Mad world
2003年12月30日
夢(後設)
我和妹妹討論夢境
討論為什麼我們總有這樣的經驗
困在一個醒不過來的夢裡
意識到自己應該醒過來了
卻怎麼也睜不開雙眼
不是鬼壓床的醒不過來
而是覺得應該離開疲憊的夢境了
卻被疲憊的夢境困頓疲憊得醒不過來
想要繼續睡下去
卻又在交雜應該醒過來的意念間
疲倦掙扎
於是我就這樣和妹妹討論著醒不過來的夢境
在一個醒不過來的夢境裡
討論為什麼我們總有這樣的經驗
困在一個醒不過來的夢裡
意識到自己應該醒過來了
卻怎麼也睜不開雙眼
不是鬼壓床的醒不過來
而是覺得應該離開疲憊的夢境了
卻被疲憊的夢境困頓疲憊得醒不過來
想要繼續睡下去
卻又在交雜應該醒過來的意念間
疲倦掙扎
於是我就這樣和妹妹討論著醒不過來的夢境
在一個醒不過來的夢境裡